Living in the Grey

I've always wondered what it would be like to see the world through rose colored glasses. Lately, everything seems brighter, more alive. That could just be the coming of spring or my new found sense that most of my life I've lived in the grey. You know, that fine line between right and wrong, heaven and hell (if you believe in them), good and bad. If only I could figure out where that line begins on either side and maybe my life, the choices I've made, would be very different.
Lately, I've struggled. I've let my heart lead my life. But I'm an Aquarian. My passion is part of me. I've been told I'm too much. Of what, I've never known. I just am.
But last month, last month I found inspiration. I found my muse. But I found something that cannot be. So I am leaving the opposite sex for someone else to figure out. For now, I will take my love, my passion, my longing and channel it into my creating. I have many projects I've been planning, I will make time.
On my to do list for April:
*A new house means making room for a new garden. Herbs in the window boxes and tomatoes, soybeans, and peppers along the side of the house outside. Much work needs to be done, but I have two extra sets of little hands to help.
*A little spring cleaning is in order. Cleaning out the attic and organizing my craft stuff so I don't buy something I need, but already have. A yard sale and donating montessori/waldorf supplies the girls have outgrown to the montessori school here. Maybe I might send some more stuff to Iraq as well.
*I haven't done this in a few years, but the girls are wanting dresses this summer. Lots and lots of dresses. I see a flurry of sewing cutesy tops, capri pants (cause Izabel's scrawny waist only allows for elastic pants), and bright summer dresses and skirts. Some for them and maybe a few for me.
*I am planning to open my Etsy shop again. I have several ideas of what to include, but it's still in the works.
*Buying a pair of these.
But first, tonight, a bubble bath and a bottle of wine.