It's been almost a year since I threw myself into the world of blogging. Many things happened to steer me off course. What a crazy time it has been. I've recently (like within the last few months) started to keep a journal. And I'm thinking if I can do that I can make time to write about things that are important to me.
I live around and in a military community outside of the US. People are coming and going all the time. Saying goodbye to old friends and making new ones is part of the deal. I recently took someone to the airport to see them off knowing full well I would probably never see them again. It was heart wrenching. I sat there having coffee knowing it would be easier to get up and walk away but my brain and my feet would not coordinate themselves to do so. My heart was speaking much louder and controlling my every thought. A hug and I walked away. I swear it was if I could feel my heart break right then. Through a stable but uncommitted marriage, a pretty uncomplicated divorce, and lots of other stories in between I have never known such sadness.
Lately I feel like I'm always saying goodbye to good people. It is part of the deal. Everyone has one foot out the door. Self sufficiency and loneliness are my words for today.
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